So Long For Now

January 2, 2014

They say when it rains it pours and there seems to be a torrential downpour of bad luck in the technology department around here lately. After my recent blogging break, a new-to-me refurbished laptop arrived several weeks ago and promptly crashed within the month. After a bit of digging around, it appears the company was all a scam. So here I sit, hen pecking all my email and shop correspondence on my iPhone with a shattered screen no less. 

Choosing to let go of this blog I love for the time being is so hard. I love the friendships with you as readers, the opportunities to build community, the outlet for sharing bits of what God is teaching me.  But it seems that once again I am in a place of letting go of my dreams, my plans, my agenda.  Allowing myself to watch His greater story unfold in my life, even if that means a slower pace of life. 

In the meantime, I will, in the words of my favorite Kristen Rodgers, continue to keep a daily 'pocket blog' over here.  I will also be trying to learn in a deeper way what it means to be fully present in the lives of my two favorite boys.  And on the subject of community, I am in the process of reimbursing my lovely girls that have been partnering with me this month as it will be quieter than crickets in these parts for a while. Psst!! Be sure to check out their awesome blogs before you go!!

And most hopefully in the not to distance future, I will be back to what I love here. Ahhh!! I miss you already!! On that note, be sure to pop over to Instagram whenever you have the chance. There will be plenty of #emstagrams to keep you happy for days. You can find me @nicoleneesby 

Ok. Enough for now. Much love to each and everyone of you. You have made my blogging adventure so wonderful this year.

For Emmett

December 23, 2013

I am fully convinced that a baby's first Christmas is 98% for the sole enjoyment of the mothers.  Because let's be honest. . . these little people are as happy rummaging through the bottle cupboard in the kitchen as they are with a pile of 2013's most popular baby toys.  

That being said, there is something so exciting about picking out a few special surprises for Christmas morning.  A tiny labor of love for these precious babies in our home.  It's also a wonderful chance to support the handmade community and add to our family collection of heirloom toys.

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So here I am, counting down the days til Christmas, like I am a kid again myself!  I cannot wait to watch Emmett cruise around with his little galloping zebras walker, as pushing things around the kitchen is his new favorite activity.  And that little wood iPhone?! May he love it even more than mine. Haha!!

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What are you excited to watch your little people open this Christmas?!  
36 hours and counting. . . 


Sometimes I try too hard at life. . .

to hard at a perfect family photo.
to hard at perfect Christmas decorations.
to hard at memory-making
to hard at Instagram captures
to hard at being spontaineous
to hard at planning awesome moments.

We woke up late because Emmett had a doozey of an early morning.  As I was preparing to dash around to make it to church less than 30 minutes late, I happened upon the email update that due to excessive snow, all services had been cancelled.  I rushed Emmett into his warm little shark suit and it was out into snow.

There is something magical about just after a big snow.  The quiet tracks on the street.  The perfect blanket of white across the lawn.  Everything has the hush of white and early morning.  Emmett thought snow shoveling was hilarious, as was Adam's handfuls of snow that he threw our way.  My family stopped by.  They brought Emmett a gift of tiny bananas.  It was this beautiful moment of laughter and excitement.

There was no outfit planning.  No make-up on.  Just little moments frozen in time.  Perfect in their own way.  It makes me think that maybe I need a little more un-planning in my life. A little more of being unplugged.  A little more carpe diem.  A little more just finding what's beautiful right now and simply enjoying it.

Also, I never got the perfect Christmas card photo taken which is fine because what could I have planned that would top this?!
^^ I don't even like bananas, but these little baby ones?!  I die! ^^
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May your last Christmas days be so merry and bright!!

Only two days left, friends!!  


When It's Not The Best Time of Year

December 20, 2013

Christmas is suppose to be the most wonderful, best time of the year.  Beautiful packages under our twinkle-lit trees, surprise gifts in the mail, family dinners.  Each a promise of happiness and love all around.

To be honest, this past year has held a lot of sadness for our family.  My grandpa passed away several weeks before Emmett was born.  My step-grandma passed away the day before my little sister's birthday.  Another sister of mine made a permanent move out of the country and we weren't able to be at her wedding.  Next week will be the first of a lifetime of Christmases apart.  There are relationships I have that feel too shattered to repair again.  Things I can't share here, because it's part of story that is not mine to tell in this public place.

So while I have so much to be grateful for, so much to celebrate; my heart has an extra heaviness this Christmas season that I have never had before.  It makes me wonder how many of those around me are fighting similar battles of their own.
This year, my heart and prayers are with you. . . 

The hurting.

The parentless.

The childless.

The financially broken.

The lonely.  

The far from home.

The sick.

The forgotten.

May we remember that Jesus didn't come to bring festivities to our December.  He didn't come to make everything right in this moment.  Not for presents or snowflake cookies or candlelit services.  He came to meet us in our grief, in our sorrows.  He came to open our eyes to something greater, something Eternal.  He came to BE peace in our hearts.  A peace that passes passes all human understanding and that keeps our hearts steady no matter what we face each day.

I love you each and am praying for you in this holiday season.