I try really super hard to live free from controlling fear.
I really, really do.
I constantly live with this thought in the back of my mind.
God is good. And everything He allows is for a reason.
But sometimes -- my fears make me cry.
To be honest, my biggest fear in life is
loosing the boy that has bewitched me, body and soul.
On rare occasions when I imagine how my life would look if he was suddenly gone
I have actually been known to cry and hurt in deep inside places.
The days this hits me the most are on my days off. . .
after he has peppered my cheeks with kisses
and brought me a glass of water and medicine for my monthly crampies
just because he knows I will need it and
then says good bye for the day.
I usually holler after him to drive safe and maybe even text me when he gets to work.
Then I lay in bed and fight the thoughts of every possible bad thing that I hope never happens.
Willing myself to trust God.
When said situation happened just yesterday
I had cuddled back under the covers for a few more winks
and several hours later, I got a call from him.
Hello?! Hellloo, babe?!
When I finally realized he had accidently called me from his pocket.
I just sat with the phone pressed against my ear
listening for a solid two minutes to his muffled conversations with the guys
and then that big laugh that makes me warm inside and happy that everything was still ok.
Even though I can't imagine my life without this best boy I've ever known
I'm thankful that God is good.
That I can trust that He will work our lives out sovereignly.
There is the place that brings peace.
So tonight you probably will find us hanging out
talking, watching our favorite shows
and most likely eating something yummy
because we never know how short life may be.
And by golly I plan to make the best of it with this person who I love so much.
How do you make the best of life with your special people?!