Love Your Mess

Most days I struggle to not be completely overwhelmed with the messiness of our life right now.  

Somedays it makes me cry.   
Somedays it makes me feel like pouting because of how unfair it seems.  
Somedays it makes me want to just crawl into a little dusty hole and pretend none of it exists.  
Somedays it makes me question how God can turn the chaos into something of beauty.

Then earlier this week, I was hit with a mental switch.  Suddenly I had this tiny thread of hope rising up somewhere deep inside.  It was a love for our mess.  Go figure.  It was like God was reminding me that even our messes are part of His plan.

Maybe the piles of financial aid paperwork after my hospital stay with no insurance is a chance to learn humility and dependence on God in a bigger way than ever before.

Maybe the fragmented relationship with someone I love so deeply is a chance to learn yet again, that God can make broken things new.

Maybe the differences in the way Husband and I look at life is not really a curse, but a blessing and the painful, but healthy tension in marriage can actually make us closer.

Maybe the upset plans, the unfulfilled dreams and frustrating disappointments of life are God's reminders that it's not all about me.  

Maybe it's all pointing to the bigger picture that marriage and relationships and beautiful babies and everything in between is not about me being happy, but rather God's way of making me holy.

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PS.  Last week a friend volunteered to take my family's picture.  These two are just snippets from the afternoon.  We were so blessed with her generosity and blown away by her talent!  If you live locally, you neeeeeed to book a session with Caitlyn!  I promise you will not be disappointed!!  

Then check back for some more beautiful photos of our big happy -- but most days messy -- family.


  1. I sit here with a smile on my face and nodding to everything you just said. :) I recently read an article suggested by another beautiful blogger that said, "marriage is not about living happily ever after". LOVED that statement because marriage is about so much more! Check it out: http://www.relevantmagazine.com/life/relationships/3-things-i-wish-i-knew-we-got-married?fb_action_ids=10201021045389197&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=other_multiline&action_object_map={%2210201021045389197%22%3A192137554262430}&action_type_map={%2210201021045389197%22%3A%22og.likes%22}&action_ref_map=[]

  2. Hugs my dear,this makes me cry,again....praying for all of you!

  3. So true! God works in the midst of our messes! :)
    p.s. I've been away from the blogging world for a while and you've had an absolutely adorable baby!! Congratulations!

  4. So many thoughts and feelings right now. Thanks for being real - life IS messy, and I am glad you are willing to show that. But you are right, that is how it's supposed to be. Reading this quote totally changed how I feel about that fact: http://jakeanddanirugg.blogspot.com/2013/03/do-you-ever-think-that-maybe-this-is.html

    And I guess this doesn't really apply completely to this post, but I keep thinking I should share it. This video is 20 minutes, but those 20 minutes literally changed my life and changed the way I have approached some recent, really tough trials. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iCvmsMzlF7o

    Thoughts and lots of prayers for you and your family :)

  5. Beautifully written! Reminds me of the Addison Road song What do I Know of Holy. Just when we think we understand God something happens to remind us of how big He is, and how complicated His plans our for us. Praying for you, girl!

  6. so encouraging. good and grace in the mess. another beautiful post (as always my dear!)