Nothing is easy. Most areas of our life are complicated and messy.
When these kind of seasons come, my natural tendency is to curl up in a corner and sulk. That corner being my bed. Or the shower. Or a long walk down the street. I like feeling sorry for myself and I usually spend a good chunk of time fantasizing about all the ways I can cut my nose off to spite my face. Hashtagsadbuttrue. HashtagGodblessmyhusband.
It's hard to give grace and choose patience.
It's easy to punish with silence and separation.
It's hard to talk through the frustrations and seek for reconciliation.
It's easy to suffer alone.
It's hard to remember that we are a team.
It's easy to frantically search for answers.
It's hard to rest in God's timing.
It's easy to fret.
It's hard to be still.
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I am learning that in these moments, I need to cling.
Cling hard to Jesus.
Cling hard to Adam.
Yesterday, by God's grace, I chose to embrace grace and unity. I chose to cling to my husband and to make the most of our day together. I chose to not allow the unrest around me to overpower my soul.
It turned out to be a wonderful day.
We used loose change to buy ice cream. We walked around a gorgeous lake. We were awed by the beauty of the clouds. We laughed at Emmett's new tricks. We talked about the things that are making our right now so hard. We were comforted with each other's presence and the knowledge that God is near to the broken. It was a day that was full of love and peace in the middle of a storm.
^^ The movie in the park was pretty awesome too. And the fact that Emmett has decided that sitting up is cool. My tiny baby is quickly turning into this little dude that is so much fun! ^^