When It's Not The Best Time of Year

Christmas is suppose to be the most wonderful, best time of the year.  Beautiful packages under our twinkle-lit trees, surprise gifts in the mail, family dinners.  Each a promise of happiness and love all around.

To be honest, this past year has held a lot of sadness for our family.  My grandpa passed away several weeks before Emmett was born.  My step-grandma passed away the day before my little sister's birthday.  Another sister of mine made a permanent move out of the country and we weren't able to be at her wedding.  Next week will be the first of a lifetime of Christmases apart.  There are relationships I have that feel too shattered to repair again.  Things I can't share here, because it's part of story that is not mine to tell in this public place.

So while I have so much to be grateful for, so much to celebrate; my heart has an extra heaviness this Christmas season that I have never had before.  It makes me wonder how many of those around me are fighting similar battles of their own.
This year, my heart and prayers are with you. . . 

The hurting.

The parentless.

The childless.

The financially broken.

The lonely.  

The far from home.

The sick.

The forgotten.

May we remember that Jesus didn't come to bring festivities to our December.  He didn't come to make everything right in this moment.  Not for presents or snowflake cookies or candlelit services.  He came to meet us in our grief, in our sorrows.  He came to open our eyes to something greater, something Eternal.  He came to BE peace in our hearts.  A peace that passes passes all human understanding and that keeps our hearts steady no matter what we face each day.

I love you each and am praying for you in this holiday season.


  1. well, as i sit here crying, i want to thank you for these words and your prayers. the christmas season is seriously my favorite. it always has been. the lights, the decorations, the music, the fellowship... but as i've gotten older and relationships have been shattered (especially within family) christmas day has gotten a lot harder for me. sometimes it's an encouragement to remember that Jesus came from a broken, hurting line of people too. He certainly didn't come from a perfect lineage. somehow that's comforting :) praying for you as well, friend. all the things you mentioned are so hard and i hurt for/with you! praying you find unexpected joy this christmas making new memories with your sweet family as we celebrate our Savior.

  2. This is a beautiful, sobering reminder. Thanks for sharing your heart.

  3. Love, love this. I went through a similar season a few years ago, lots of loss (you know.) Thank goodness our joy is in the Lord and not in our circumstances, and that he knows our sorrows. Love you, can't wait to see you soon.

  4. Oh Nicole! As I sit here with tears in my eyes I can't help but thank The Lord that he brought you in my life through this wonderful thing we call blogging. You always say just what I need to hear, right when I need it! I absolutely love this time and season. Christmas is my favorite time of the year but as you say..this year has been different for me as well. I'm looking forward to the time with family & friends but my heart does have a heaviness it hasn't had before! Thanks for reminding us what the true meaning of Christmas is! You are in my heart, thoughts and prayers this Christmas! Thanks for your friendship!

  5. thank you for this reminder, Nicole. i love your sweet heart! praying for your & your family!! :)

  6. Oh Nicole, this is seriously going to bring me to tears. :) Thank you for writing from your heart and reminding us that Jesus came to save us, to carry our burdens and make our loads a little lighter. It's so easy to pretend that we have everything put together and these were the exact words that I needed to remind myself that I am broken and need Jesus to save me.

    p.s. It's anything but a coincidence that my pastor talked about this exact thing at church today! :)

    p.p.s. I'll be praying for you and your family this Christmas! :)

  7. Sweet sweet post. My heart and prayers are with you. May you find unexpected joy this Christmas with your little family and feel the love of our savior.

  8. Thank you. Thank you. Sometimes I avoid your blog because it can be another blog that makes my heart ache... seeing your handsome husband and perfectly adorable baby. But so often you aren't just adding to the Pinterest-worthy photos cluttering the internet. You are writing to point readers toward Jesus. Thank you for that gift. This post is really good.